These is not going to be a photodiary post, but let us first bow our heads and have a moment of silent for my dad whom I lost recently. I know he is lost to the earth but gain in Heaven.
It’s not easy for me to talk about this, but I know I will never be ready to move past this burning sensation in my heart if I do not make effort to write about it; writing down my thought has always been therapeutic for me, veritably it is one of the reason I started this blog, the pictures and styling is just an addition.
At first I thought it was all a nightmare that I would soon wake up from only for me to be faced with the unyielding truth that ‘this is reality’ and it’s high time I realized that the world has not come to an end. Now I’m faced with so many questions because it seem unreal that something like this will happen to the most selfless person I know in this world, it just seem so unfair the valuable people in this world has to go earlier than the wicked.
I received so many consolation words from those that came to mourn with me, and someone told me that it best that way because he has finish his race and has gone to rest with God while the wicked of this world are given time for repentance, though I’m not sure about anything right now but I take consolation in those words because it the only thing that made sense to me right now.
I am deciding right now to take absolute control of my mind and think only positive thoughts and not think on things that will question my very existence, in as much as I needed answers to so many of my questions; the why’s? And the what if? I have decided to ignore those questions because God simply knows best and I know for sure His plans for me are that of good and not of evil, so I take comfort in that truth.
I also know healing from this pain will not go over night but will lessened with time _ this is what I heard from those that has faced similar situation.
There’s solace in the fact that he is now in a better place, a place of rest and peace, my aim now is to at least live half of his expectations from me.
I’m going to miss you so much Sir and thank you for being the best father a girl could ask of, thank you for all your love and selflessness towards me, your love has given me so much self esteem to know I deserved to be loved.
Rest in peace my dearest daddy. I will love you forever and you will always be in my heart and mind because when I think of humbleness, love, faith and selflessness you come to mind; you are truly the definition of this four virtue.
And though I'm deep in raw emotions right now, but I have decided to immerse myself with work, work and work. And of course do what I love; blogging.